the old me, but the new you

I've tried my best
to prove how much I care about you
I've never expected this to be happened
its just so.. out of sudden

sorry to say but I'm tired with all these
you are no longer the one who you used to be
there's no point pulling you back either
when you are actually happy and comfortable with who you are and whom you with now =)

so..
say bye to my used to be best friend and hello to the new friend
be happy and smile, like you used to be ~
I will miss you, my gurl. loves ♡♥

no more tears dropping ..

Its time to move on,
with a smile on my face..


- the end -

to the sunshine of my high school life ~

smile

At least, I can see your smile, and thats, more than enough :)

full stop ~

a plan?

all I can do right now
study like mad
movie
outing whenever I'm free even though I'm lazy
not gonna online that often
stop being a stalker

all I can do
as if I can

I can be a very busy person
I can be
trying so hard to be

I don't wanna be alone
I'm scared of being alone
there's no point of thinking much
they are all just nonsenses
its all over

who am I to you?
friend?
now who are you to me?
memories
sweet memories

now,
its time to wake up from my dream

sad to say but
thanks for everything
*appreciate*
love

a dramatic society ~

needs a talk, with my own heart

can someone just kill me now? please?
I know, I'm being so emo for this few days and I know, its just so not me.
gimme some time, friends, and I will be back.
sorry and many thanks to all concerned.

Its all over, memories are just nothing. I couldn't even listen to the song , not anymore..

I'm dead, for now.

no more holding back ~
thanks for the way you treat me ~

in a long run ~

Just got to meet up with my sista who just came back from uk yesterday. Its been a while since the last time we had our lovely talk, so it would take like an age to tell her everything which happened to me haha.

For the past few hours, we had a chance to share in some of our secrets. I’ve never tried to keep secrets from her as I know that my sista can always be the most perfect secret keeper.

Though we seldom talk to each other, its weird and somehow funny that she knows whats on my mind all the time . Theres always this special bond of understanding between us which makes our relationship remains that sweet all the while =)

Thats why, I love her , my beloved sister , a fun - loving girl <3

welcome back pretty ( L.G ) ~
cant’t wait for the next outing ~

last message : the love behind our relationship ~

6 years, we have been knowing each other for 6 years and now, our relationship is officially done...

There are lots of memories between you and I. We were best friends because we were so much alike as in a different way. And also we did share our love and affection for each other.

At first , we talked a lot and it became obvious that we had a lot in common. We became more and more inpressed with each other as the days and weeks went by. It often happened that we thought of the same thing, and we both felt the same way that we are important to each other. If for some reasons we could not meet up then there would be messages going back and forth to make up for the lack. We spoke on the phone and we were truly honest with each other.

We had good communication either but somehow , now the relationship is getting worst and I’ve seriously no idea why is it like that. reason is because, there is no understanding? or lack of communication? ya maybe thats the truth as we didn get to meet up that often since I had transferred to another school. I find it sad though cause there is a feeling of distance starting to occur in our relationship.

We behaved as though we were going together and I had to admit that I did spend a lot of time thinking of “you” but we both knew that because of the distance between us we did not have a chance.

I knew something bad was going to happen before the day “you” called me, I knew that it was going to over before it had begun. Things got worst when you did not want to continue with the relationship as you were tired and felt like you were drowning, you blamed me I did nothing and you did all the chasing. I was heart broken and couldn’t really believe that a human being who is suppose to be sweet and caring could treat me that way. I was in a shock for quite a long while. The feeling I had was so bad and I decided that no more did I want to put an effort on any kind of relationship.

Words to you : “ I’ve tried my best to show you my loves, my best friend. I’d given you thousandth times of explainations , saying that I’m still the same. Instead of telling you how exactly I feel , I even made it through actions. But whatever I have done, why is it never enough to make you feel my love? I cant understand why you found me in the first place if you thought that I wasn’t a good one. =( ”

Its all my fault after all, I was the one who changed at first, sorry.

I wanted to tell this story but I would not like for people to think as if it was a source of disappointments. Thanks :)

Lastly,

I’ve not regretted knowing you as my best friend, sunny =)

簡單愛~

I have been forced to update my blog constantly =(

i'm always worried about you,

but it seems like you never care as if there is nothing to do with you

I always wanted to find you, talk to you,

listen to you, and watch the way you smile

but there is always a feeling telling me that i'm annoying

I really hate that though ><

can you please, don change?

as in the way you treat me,

cause

i'm getting used to it =(

you make my life a total different~

my sweetie =)

truth hurts~

making love out of nothing at all

I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream

And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
Everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try

And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules
And I know how to break 'em
And I always know the name of the game

But I don't know how to leave you
And I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all

Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all

Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun
Are streaming through the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight

The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
And it's looking for a rhythm like you
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright

I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
Well it's nothing till I give it to you

I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
I can make all the stadiums rock
I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
I can make you every promise that has ever been made
I can make all your demons be gone

But I'm never gonna make it without you
Do you really want to see me crawl
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
Making love out of nothing at all

in love with the song ~