Friday, June 25, 2010


At least, I can see your smile, and thats, more than enough :)

full stop ~

Monday, June 21, 2010

a plan?

all I can do right now
study like mad
outing whenever I'm free even though I'm lazy
not gonna online that often
stop being a stalker

all I can do
as if I can

I can be a very busy person
I can be
trying so hard to be

I don't wanna be alone
I'm scared of being alone
there's no point of thinking much
they are all just nonsenses
its all over

who am I to you?
now who are you to me?
sweet memories

its time to wake up from my dream

sad to say but
thanks for everything

a dramatic society ~

needs a talk, with my own heart

can someone just kill me now? please?
I know, I'm being so emo for this few days and I know, its just so not me.
gimme some time, friends, and I will be back.
sorry and many thanks to all concerned.

Its all over, memories are just nothing. I couldn't even listen to the song , not anymore..

I'm dead, for now.

no more holding back ~
thanks for the way you treat me ~

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

in a long run ~

Just got to meet up with my sista who just came back from uk yesterday. Its been a while since the last time we had our lovely talk, so it would take like an age to tell her everything which happened to me haha.

For the past few hours, we had a chance to share in some of our secrets. I’ve never tried to keep secrets from her as I know that my sista can always be the most perfect secret keeper.

Though we seldom talk to each other, its weird and somehow funny that she knows whats on my mind all the time . Theres always this special bond of understanding between us which makes our relationship remains that sweet all the while =)

Thats why, I love her , my beloved sister , a fun - loving girl <3

welcome back pretty ( L.G ) ~
cant’t wait for the next outing ~

Friday, June 4, 2010

last message : the love behind our relationship ~

6 years, we have been knowing each other for 6 years and now, our relationship is officially done...

There are lots of memories between you and I. We were best friends because we were so much alike as in a different way. And also we did share our love and affection for each other.

At first , we talked a lot and it became obvious that we had a lot in common. We became more and more inpressed with each other as the days and weeks went by. It often happened that we thought of the same thing, and we both felt the same way that we are important to each other. If for some reasons we could not meet up then there would be messages going back and forth to make up for the lack. We spoke on the phone and we were truly honest with each other.

We had good communication either but somehow , now the relationship is getting worst and I’ve seriously no idea why is it like that. reason is because, there is no understanding? or lack of communication? ya maybe thats the truth as we didn get to meet up that often since I had transferred to another school. I find it sad though cause there is a feeling of distance starting to occur in our relationship.

We behaved as though we were going together and I had to admit that I did spend a lot of time thinking of “you” but we both knew that because of the distance between us we did not have a chance.

I knew something bad was going to happen before the day “you” called me, I knew that it was going to over before it had begun. Things got worst when you did not want to continue with the relationship as you were tired and felt like you were drowning, you blamed me I did nothing and you did all the chasing. I was heart broken and couldn’t really believe that a human being who is suppose to be sweet and caring could treat me that way. I was in a shock for quite a long while. The feeling I had was so bad and I decided that no more did I want to put an effort on any kind of relationship.

Words to you : “ I’ve tried my best to show you my loves, my best friend. I’d given you thousandth times of explainations , saying that I’m still the same. Instead of telling you how exactly I feel , I even made it through actions. But whatever I have done, why is it never enough to make you feel my love? I cant understand why you found me in the first place if you thought that I wasn’t a good one. =( ”

Its all my fault after all, I was the one who changed at first, sorry.

I wanted to tell this story but I would not like for people to think as if it was a source of disappointments. Thanks :)


I’ve not regretted knowing you as my best friend, sunny =)